Thursday, July 20, 2017

December 17th – I’m coming for you

I’ve been spinning my wheels in the month of July thinking about a lot of goals, stresses, challenges, blah, blah, blah.  Coming back to what's on my radar, which I talked about in my last blog post…I realize I need to focus in even harder.  Basically, put a timeline to it, figure out the plan of priorities, and get it done.  Which is scary because usually when I put a timeline out there with health goals, the nearer I get, the more stress I put on myself because I typically don’t make the changes I set out to make.  That’s probably the story of almost every obese person on the planet.

But today is a day where numerical values (and maybe a little OCD) gave me a little kickstart.  My timeline is mid-December, right before the holidays.  Push hard on my goals until then, and then enjoy the holidays with friends and family.

So I choose December 17, 2017….well, just because….12/17/17 looks good.   And when I calculated how much time that is from today – the number jumped out to me in neon.  It turns out that December 17th is 150 days / 21 weeks / 5 months from now.  Good solid numbers, I'm going with it.

And so….I begin to layout my plan.  Join me!  What are you going to accomplish in the next 5 months?!

And for those of you who know me personally - get your support pants on, and be ready.  Might need some assists over the next couple months.

Sunday, July 9, 2017

What's on my radar

There might be a lot of things you want to do, a lot of change you want to make.  But sometimes you have to break it down to what you need to accomplish at the moment.

For me, that is regaining focus.  Starting with a morning routine of making a cup of tea, reviewing what’s on my radar, followed by some movement (stretching or a walk).  The important part of that routine, is the regular reminder of what’s on my radar for the day, week, and year. 

I’ll be keeping a little folder with those goals or tasks. And that's what I will review each morning.  But it's not going to be a lot of things - keeping it simple, and focused on what's important.   As I accomplish some, or other things come into the picture (like they always do) - I will change them.  But it will be a regular reminder of where my focus needs to be.

Sunday, July 2, 2017

Being Open Through the Hard Times

If anyone tells you it’s easy, it's not.  After losing a substantial amount of weight, it's crept back up on me.  Well it didn't creep, I let it happen...not being as focused and making a lot of poor choices for an extended period.

Blogging publicly in that situation, isn’t ideal.  Or is it?!  That’s what I’ve been thinking week over week, month over month…and reminded of whenever Facebook’s alert comes through that people haven’t heard from me in a while.

I’ve decided, this might *actually* be the perfect time to share what’s happening and how I move through it.  Sometimes that’s the understanding and motivation that I have looked for…...when I scroll through Facebook at 9 pm after a hard day….or after I’ve eaten an entire pizza, and realized I've had no real vegetables for the week…..or after I get back from a walk, sweaty and feeling much more unfit than I was before.

A shift in your state of mind can come from anything.  You never know when it's going to happen or where it's going to come from.  But we’re not alone in the struggle to change course for the better. 

Saturday, November 19, 2016

Getting Uncomfortable

In about an hour, I will be stepping into a new group workout that seems waaaay beyond my abilities, with not only gym rats but actual athletes.  In fact, last Saturday I worked out along the side while class was being done.…just to see what it's like, preparing myself to join sometime in the future. But at the end of my pt session this week, my coach said I should come to the class on Saturday.  

I wonder what the look on my face was - I'm thinking it was shock, horror, and doubt....having immediate discomfort with the idea.  Even though it was the same situation I've been in before (about a year ago I joined an Anytime Fitness class, bravely thinking I could do it, I just needed to modify things)...this one is a little bit different. This time, it wasn't me thinking I'm ready, but someone else thinking I'm ready.

Coincidently, I'm having similar conversations in my professional life.  When talking about personal development goals for the upcoming year, my boss is steering the conversations towards things that are uncomfortable (even towards the one thing that I know I am not good at, and don't care to do).

There seems to be a theme going on right now.  There's many, many quotes talking about making yourself uncomfortable in order to grow.  And then there's living it.  So here we go!

Sunday, July 24, 2016

It's not how you start, it's how you finish

For the past two weekends, I’ve been watching my friend’s kids and seeing how their days have been filled.  They are growing up in a city….lots of friends around - playing in the neighborhood, playing at each others houses, etc. I also noticed that when they are at the house by themselves, they don’t seem to know what to do without guidance - someone helping with choices or engaging in an activity with them.  They know how to physically play – with their imagination, toys, draw, sports, etc.  But if left to their own devices, they tend to go to the old standby – screens of some kind (iPad, Xbox, cell phone).   Those observations made me think more deeply about how I grew up, and I saw correlations to some things I've been struggling with as I try to make healthy changes now as an adult.  

I grew up in a house out in the country.  In that environment, you don’t really have a lot of friends nearby. I was lucky enough to have my grandma and cousin a mile away, and a few childhood friends just as far - but the rest were in the city.  There’s no popping over to each others houses for playtime throughout the day – play dates needed to be planned, setup, and were usually very sporadic. In addition to this, my parents owned their own businesses.  If I wasn't able to be out and about, I had a lot of time at home alone.  And when I was on my own, there were a couple standby's I went to.

My go-to's were screens as well (in the form of tv) and food…..both of which I helped myself to quite regularly.  For many, many years that’s how I filled most of my time at home.  And since most of those years are a time of development and learning what day to day life means,  it meant that I had developed habits that centered around my go-to's.

Now, it would be easy to blame my parents.  In fact, for a few years I probably did. But really, when I think about that more - they were busy being an example to me in another way.  They had a combination of midwestern work ethic and coming from farming families - which meant they worked a lot, worked hard, and built their own businesses as a result.

So, now the question is… do I twist it all.  How do I use the qualities I have from my parents that they modeled in having their own businesses….and create a healthy, consistent day to day routine, knowing what my mind and body has been used to.

It’s going to take a lot of effort, but it can be done.  It's not how you start, it’s how you finish.

Sunday, June 26, 2016

How Many Times

How many times can you walk into a restaurant, go through a fast food drive-thru, or order a guilty pleasure, and say to yourself....this is it, this is the last time.  

I've re-written this post for hours, and sat on it for days. Trying to figure out what to say about it.  But the simple fact is, I’ve said that phrase often.  I've told myself - this is it, this is the last time...

...I'm going to order that pizza (and then do it again days later, usually eating the whole thing in one sitting).

...I'm going to go to the grocery store to pick up a quick dinner (and then get more than just A dinner).

...I'm going to order a sandwich through the drive-thru (and end up ordering three).

Even after I noticed these patterns, I kept on doing it.  Maybe not all the time, but enough for it to feel like Groundhog Day whenever it happened again.  And since I can't even remember how many times that has been! is the time it really does need to be the last.  

So I guess the question now is, what comes of admitting it.  What's the next step to make those rare moments, instead of regular routine. To be honest, I'm not exactly sure yet...more to learn and figure out.  But this post has been a "this is it" moment I'm proud of. 

Saturday, May 21, 2016

Pauses in the Day

Got up at 6 am like clockwork on a weekend away.  Why I don't get up to be outside like this everyday...I don't know.  It's such a refreshing and peaceful way to start off your day.  Instead of immediately going to electronics and the online world.

Might be implementing some time limits to change up routine.  Five minutes max in the morning to check if anything has an immediate need or if the world is going to explode.  Then get up, get outside (if only for 5 minutes), and move a little.  Chances are...I'll want to keep moving, which would be a much better start to the day.

Same goes for after work.  Twenty minutes of nothing, to make the transition, and then decide what else I will do next.  Thoughts are that the little pauses throughout the day may help adjust old routines, and better choices will be more likely to follow.